Undisclosed Desires

Auriol Hays

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I am just going to say it – there was a time when I hated kids. Aside from their basic cuteness ‚Äì I thought they were an annoying bunch. So year in and out I would look at people with little kids and think, ‚ÄúHa-ha, at least it‚Äôs not mine!‚Äù ¬†I would ignore all the dreams where my future son would make a guest appearance. I had to get on with my life…yes, the one where I was just annoyed by children in general. ¬†Looking back I realise that that it said more about what I was going through than anything else. ¬†I needed to grow up and let go of my ‚Äústuff‚Äù but I was nowhere near ready for that yet.

Now that Christmas is around the corner kids are on my mind once again. My daughter, the comedian, calls herself a casual Christian because she loves Christmas and thinks that Jesus was on to something. ¬†She is possibly the craziest person in my life and reminds me about everything that is good and unusual on this planet. And now that there are more kids in the family there is more to celebrate. My poor mother in law is going to cook and bake her soul out while the rest of us eat, drink and become very jolly…lol!

My family and the crap we all get up to got me to thinking about kids in orphanages. For a kid it‚Äôs a catastrophe when they don‚Äôt get presents but to have no one around you to love? Most people feel guilty about something this time of the year and so give wherever they can. Yet after speaking to someone involved with kids it became apparent that they are forgotten the rest of the year. Can you imagine being forgotten?

So made a decision to do something because…dammit-all….I am lucky. Yes, my parents had their issues and life wasn‚Äôt always rosy but they were there. I always felt at home.¬† Honestly I don‚Äôt really know what I am going to do just yet or how I will get it right but I have to do something. We all should do something.